A Little Reflection

It’s been a while since I’ve posted, mostly because I barely have the time to do what needs to be done for the next day. But here I’ve found a spare moment. And I’ve been able to notice different things over the past couple weeks about what has been giving me life and taking it away.

One thing that definitely drained me a few weeks ago was dealing with another person’s poor choices and bad decisions. Often we think that we are the only ones who deal with the consequences of our actions, but that is not so. I got sucked in. My heart was burdened. I don’t even know this person’s name, but I carried the weight of the poor choices and the gravity of the situation with me. But often, what takes life away leads to something that gives me life. Though I felt burdened, others spoke words of affirmation into my life, reminding me that my choice to get involved, to get sucked into the drama of the situation, had tremendous positive effects. Just as others may deal with the negative consequences of our actions, others may be tremendously impacted in a positive way because of seemingly inconsequential choices.

Lately, I feel like school has been taking life away from me. Becoming overwhelmed, not knowing if everything will be finished, the feeling that I’m running out of time – it frustrates and discourages me. I’ve reached a point where I’m ready to graduate. But it’s not even in a positive sense, that I feel prepared to go out into the world and discover something new. It’s more the feeling of I don’t want to do this anymore. The homework, the tests – I’m ready for it to be over. This semester has been so crazy with non-stop work. As I prepare to register for my final semester of classes, I begin to think that maybe I’m not ready to graduate – I’m just ready for something new. I’m ready for this semester to be over. But still, I’m stuck in this place where I’m just trying to survive. There’s no desire to thrive in my classes and learn something new. I’m just trying to get by. So pray that as the semester comes to a close, I would find the motivation to finish strong and to have a positive attitude about school.

I think what has become life-giving about this life-taking situation has been the opportunities to spend time with friends and share my frustration. Recently I was able to have dinner with a friend who has been somewhat absent for much of the semester. It was great to catch up with him and hear how things are going in his life, to hear his own concerns and try to speak words of encouragement into his life. And this past weekend, I went on a retreat with my staff. We spent the time with each other, not only having fun and getting to know each other a bit better, but also sharing the concerns on our hearts and seeking prayer for the things that burden us each day. It was comforting to experience the trust and support that we have in one another. It was really encouraging to know that we have many months ahead of us to become even closer than we already have become.

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2 thoughts on “A Little Reflection

  1. I find myself constantly eager for the weekends and holidays just to have a short rest from school. It never seems to end even though I know it is just around the corner. You are a much gooder righter than I will ever bee. I hope I get your paper later today. I hope you don’t get mine. I am still writing it right now. I do get frustrated over all of the non-art work that we have to do at school.Your blog is great. I have you linked from my place to yours. Thanks for linking me up. I will be sure to check here often and leave you long meaningless comments.

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